There's always time to launch your dream

jxpx777:

“I’d love to start a company / become a great programmer / write an awesome blog, but there’s just not enough time in the day!” Bullshit. There’s always enough time, you’re just not spending it…

I know, okay? x_x I’ve been fighting procrastination half my life. It’s one thing that this means I miss homework or even deadlines at work; it’s much more painful that I’m missing out on doing the things I really want to do, fulfilling my dreams. For example, I’ve been going on and on for about a month about how easy it’d be to add rudimentary networking to Overload, yet I haven’t written a single code on it during all that time. Not having time just can’t be true, even though I’ve been pretty busy. I’ve just… Not taken the time.

This doesn’t just apply to my dreams but to anything so it’s rather tangential to the OP, but still. It’s been the same pattern throughout my life: If something’s really important, either to myself or to someone else, I trawl my news reader or watch a tv series, feeling worse and worse and less capable of doing the thing the closer the deadline comes, until it’s too late, whereafter I’ve done neither the thing I needed to do nor things I wanted to do or would enjoy.

I’ve tried organizational software, schedules, rewarding myself for succeeding, punishing myself for failing, talking to a shrink, asked teachers for help, reading books, … It’s not a lack of time, that I know, but *what is it* that makes me make myself fail, over and over?